liquid Xanax update

Yesterday’s post was extremely difficult for me to publish as I’m a very private person and I like to hide my weaknesses and insecurities.  So I just want to give a quick update.

I’ve felt much more at ease today. I’m telling you the liquid Xanax is a life saver. Haha. But also late this morning I spoke to the research nurse specialist at NIH who really calmed my nerves just by saying hello. She’s just one of those people who have a way about them.  But she also told me I can probably get a pass to sleep at the lodge with Matt as opposed to the hospital.  I’m in the healthcare field,  the worst patient on earth, and don’t like sleeping in hospitals.  I stayed in the hospital less than 24 hours when each of my kids were born. In fact, they wanted to keep us 48 hours when my son was born, but I was able to convince them otherwise. I digress. This brings me to another calming point of my day.  A gal I just recently met on Facebook had her PTG at NIH 5 years ago and is there right now for testing because of abdominal pain. Anyway, she texted me this evening ‘Omg this place is awesome! I have been coming here 5 yrs and i wish i could come here for everything lol’ and ‘well this hospital doesn’t feel like a hospital so i think you will feel happy once your here and get to see it’

So I’m feeling pretty good at the moment. It’s amazing what opening up and being vulnerable can do for your soul. Had I not done so I probably would have started down the negative spiral my mind occasionally takes me down.  Also, got to spend lots of really good quality time with the kiddos today.  I have the best kids. ❤️  

Anyway, good night